The Beginning Of Sin

 

You know that moment

When you do what’s wrong but can’t stop

I guess it’s what I’ve always feared in my mind

And it just won’t drop

The kind of wrong that makes you forget who you really are

And that feeling of love inside of you

Is put away in a place so far

 

Excuse my English,

If im being too imprecise

As a matter of fact, what goes on in my head

Ain’t nothing to do with sugar and spice.

You see we’ve all got skeletons in our closet

But I ain’t here to confess

Poetry is just how I get things out

Kind of like my distress.

Let me tell u a lil story, my lil narration

You’ve probably heard it before

About life and how it isn’t a simple equation

 

So it starts with the moment she felt her world torn apart

She knew that with time she’d get better

But nothing could mend this broken heart

Feeling empty disheartened and dejected

Not even a kind word from a stranger

Could amount to the way she felt rejected.

 

Turned towards terrains of temptations

Trying to be tested

Tick tock tick tock

Time went by as she lived her life of sin infested

Cast amongst demons of sloth, greed and lust

Bounded by feelings of sadness, loneliness

Was there anyone she could trust?

 

‘’I don’t want it anymore

This is too much to handle

She confided in the God she once obeyed

As she prayed in a dark room with a candle

 

He’s only will to love her gave her second chance to repent

Feeling remorse and regret

I want to be heaven sent

She said

But she went

And did again like a little child she was bent

Into thinking the world was a horrible place and people did not believe in lent.

 

The God I trust is the only I serve

But with all that I’ve done

Your mercy and grace I don’t deserve

So I’ll sit aside and keep my feelings

Knowing very well there will always be a day

Where I won’t stop sinning

Heavy hearted, lost in emotion

Could this only be the beginning?