You know that moment
When you do what’s wrong but can’t stop
I guess it’s what I’ve always feared in my mind
And it just won’t drop
The kind of wrong that makes you forget who you really are
And that feeling of love inside of you
Is put away in a place so far
Excuse my English,
If im being too imprecise
As a matter of fact, what goes on in my head
Ain’t nothing to do with sugar and spice.
You see we’ve all got skeletons in our closet
But I ain’t here to confess
Poetry is just how I get things out
Kind of like my distress.
Let me tell u a lil story, my lil narration
You’ve probably heard it before
About life and how it isn’t a simple equation
So it starts with the moment she felt her world torn apart
She knew that with time she’d get better
But nothing could mend this broken heart
Feeling empty disheartened and dejected
Not even a kind word from a stranger
Could amount to the way she felt rejected.
Turned towards terrains of temptations
Trying to be tested
Tick tock tick tock
Time went by as she lived her life of sin infested
Cast amongst demons of sloth, greed and lust
Bounded by feelings of sadness, loneliness
Was there anyone she could trust?
‘’I don’t want it anymore
This is too much to handle
She confided in the God she once obeyed
As she prayed in a dark room with a candle
He’s only will to love her gave her second chance to repent
Feeling remorse and regret
I want to be heaven sent
But she went
And did again like a little child she was bent
Into thinking the world was a horrible place and people did not believe in lent.
The God I trust is the only I serve
But with all that I’ve done
Your mercy and grace I don’t deserve
So I’ll sit aside and keep my feelings
Knowing very well there will always be a day
Where I won’t stop sinning
Heavy hearted, lost in emotion
Could this only be the beginning?